There are many spaces in my heart reserved for things usually unloved- mornings, grey-wet-cold weather, vegetables, ugly animals…
Somewhere amid the confetti of affection that makes me an obnoxious person to live and/or work with is a love for pointless tests of endurance with myself. “Can I bike when it’s raining? What about snowing?” “How many days can I go without a shower?” “Can I edit all of these photos before I get up to go pee?”
This thought pattern has led me to my love of long distance running. I’m not competitive, and I’m certainly not fast*- I don’t keep stats and my PR is “finishing.” I get the biggest high from telling myself “I am running X miles today,” feeling like I can’t possibly run X miles, and then the giddy, finish-line feeling that comes later that day when I have indeed run X miles and survived.
Maybe this is why I felt the need to take on as much as I have- two new pieces for two different shows, a workshop, 30 postcards and a large installation all happening during October/November. There have been a few times over the past couple of weeks where the thought “I can’t possibly do X number of things!” passed through my brain…and noisily through my mouth. While I’m not done yet, things are finally to a point where I have time and space to breathe a bit, be a better human, and play the odd game of Rivals of Catan (All important things) AND it will all be finished, for better or worse, just in time for my personal favorite holiday, Thanksgiving.
So I thought it was time, not to whine about being busy, but to thank all the lovely people in my life who’ve allowed me to be so busy. I can’t name everyone (because I’m too busy har har), but you know who you are- thankyou to friends and family who listened to me whine and responded with love and encouragement; thankyou to coworkers who let me talk to myself without interrupting; thankyou to Boyfriend who said not one word about the messy house, the takeout dinners on my nights to cook, the lack of presence; thankyou to anyone who tried to make social plans with me only to get a “yes!…No…Maybe?…let me check? If this meeting gets cancelled, then definitely?”; thankyou to the Walgreens guy who gave me a discount on old film; thankyou to all the venues and organizations that gave me a chance to make and share art; to the two intrepid workshoppers (photos coming soon!) who made me feel like all my efforts were not in vain; to Tension Tamer Tea for living up to the promises of its name; to you guys who read this blog-
Now on to the final stretch.